Sad Day...............

Well It's A Sad Day For Me Again. I Just Put Donald In Hospice This Afternoon. He Suffered A Stroke Monday. And Has Deteriorated The Past Couple Days. I Have Power Of Attorney Over His Care. So I'm Having Them Make Him Comfortable. The Lung Cancer Has Spread. And It Is Terminal. I Just Want Him To Go See Mom. This One Is Hitting Me Harder Than Mom Did. I Think Because She Was Sick A Long Time. And Donald Has Always Been So Strong. I Have Called Him A Pain In My Ass For So Long. That I Am So Going To Miss Him. This Is Breaking My Heart. But He Is Suffering So Bad. I Am Trying To Be Stong. But This Time It's Not Going To Be As Easy. I Still Haven't Gotten Over My Mom And Now My Step Dad. And Yes It Has Been A Year And Two Weeks. And This Is What I Was Afraid Of. So It Is A Matter Of Days Or Hours For Him Now. I Told Him Tonight When I Left The Hospital That It Was Ok For Him To Go See Mom. That She Was Waiting For Him.

Well Girls This Is All I Can Type For Now.

Hello Everyone....................

Yep Time Is Whizzing By Again. Donald Has Had A Few Set Backs. He Has Blood Clots In His Leg. So Now He Has To Take Shots To Thin His Blood. The Pills Don't Work For Him. I Was Giving Him The Shots At First. And Then A Nurse Showed Him How To Do Them Him Self. So He Has Been Doing Them On His Own. But I Have To Call Him To Tell Him When To Take It. I Think His Mind Is Going That's Why I Have To Call Him. I Know He Is Driving Me Crazy. But Then I Have To Sit Back And Think That He Has No One Else. Plus I'm Trying To Take Some Of The Burden Off Of Josh. Poor Kid........
Well Guys That's My Little Up Date For Now.

April, What Happened

Ok I Am Shocked. What Happened To April? I Know I Have Done A Lot Of Yard Work. And We Did Some Running Around On The Bike. Weather Permitting. But What Else Happened. Who Knows.........
Donald Is Doing Good. I Haven't Heard From Him This Week. But I Made Him Dinner Last Friday. I Also Went Over And Hooked Up His Cable Box And VCR. Then I Spent Some Time Cleaning Out My Moms Room. Ok Wait I Only Got The Dresser Drawers Cleaned Out. And That Took Me About Three Hours. Of Course I Spent Time Sorting Out Things To Donate And Things To Just Trash. That House Is Just Over Whelming. My Mom Will Be Gone A Year This Month. And Donald Is Just Use To The House Being The Way It Is. I Would Like To Go Over There And Just Start Cleaning. But Donald Doesn't Want To Get Up Early And Then He Gets Tired And Doesn't Want To Be Bothered. And Then I Have Pawlee To Take Care Of. So I Have To Be Home To Make Dinner And Do My Own Things.
I'm Just Glad I Don't Have To See It Every Day. Well I Guess If I Did It Would Be Different. Wouldn't It. lol lol Oh Well To Each His Own.
Well Girls Not Much Else To Catch Ya Up On. So This Is My Up Date For Now. Take Care.

Time Flys...............

Gosh Time Fly's Weather You Want It To Or Not. My Step Dad Is Doing Great. The Doctors Are Very Happy With His Progress So Far. And I Hope He Keeps Doing Good. So I'm Not So Worried About Him Like I Was. And His Attitude Is Awesome. Witch Totally Amazes Me Every Time I Talk To Him. I Just So Love A Positive Attitude. I Am So A Cup Half Full Kind Of Girl. I Haven't Been Doing Much Around Here. On The Week Ends I've Been Going To The Bar With Pawlee Just To Torture People. lol lol Since I Don't Drink I Can Only Deal With Them For A Few Hours. Then I Leave And Walk Home. Witch Is Only A Couple Blocks Away. But I Get Out Of The House Witch For A While I Had Lost Interest In. Poor Pawlee Had To Do Everything By Him Self Cause I Just Didn't Want To See People. Now He Can't Get Rid Of Me. lol lol But He Likes Having Me Around.
Well Girls I Won't Even Lie And Say I'll Be Back Soon. Cause I Can't Guarantee Anything These Days. But I Will Drop By Again. So All Of You Take Care. And Live Life To The Fullest.

Thanks Guys

Thanks Mike And Val For Your Love And Support. It's Nice To Know You All Still Keep An Eye On Me. I Don't Know How Donald Is Doing This Week. Because He Hasn't Come By. Josh Called Me Today And Said Donald Hadn't Come Over Cause He Has Been To Tired. Witch I Understand. So I'll Up Date You More Later On That Part. As For Me I Haven't Been Doing Much. I Kinda Relaxed A Little Bit This Week. Since I Wasn't Feeding Everyone. Witch I Don't Mind. I Just Hate Trying To Figure Out What Every One Wants To Eat. I Get Tired Of Hearing I Don't Know. I Wish Stores Sold A Dish Called I Don't Know. Cause Every Time I Asked What They Wanted For Dinner And They Said I Don't Know. That's What They Would Get. lol lol Well Everyone Thats All From Me For Now. Take Care. I'll Be Back Later.......................

Sorry Again..............

Yep I've Been Away Forever Again. I'm Dealing With A Lot Of Emotional Things Again. My Step Dad Found Out That He Has Lung Cancer. So I Have Been Spending Alot Of Time Trying To Keep Him Up Beat. I Make Dinner For Him Every Night. And Then I Sit And Listen To Him Go On And On. I Know I Have Always Said He Drives Me Crazy. But Now I Listen Because I Know He's Scared. I Feel So Bad For Him. He Decided To Do Chemo And Radiation Therapy. And He's Worried About Losing His Hair. Not That He Had Much. But What He Had Was His. He's Been Already Getting Sick. I Keep Telling Him I Think A Lot Of It Is Nerves. But I Don't Think He's Going To Make It Threw This. I Was So Worried That He Was Going To Go Not Long After My Mom. And It's Been Nine Months And Now To Find Out This. I Just Lost A Friend To Cancer Wednesday And I Had Been Using Her As An Example For My Step Dad. So I Refuse To Let Him Know She Passed Suddenly. I Want To Keep Him Up Beat. Even Though I Am Not.
Then I Have To Deal With My Husband. Who Is So Sick Of Seeing My Step Dad. But Understands Why I'm Doing It. It's Just Hard On Him Cause My Step Dad Wants To Stay Around And Visit And Hubby Is Trying To Sleep. My Step Dad Is The Kind Of Guy That Is Use To Things Being His Way. And So Is Pawlee. So I Have To Keep The Peace There.
My Sister Toni Was Also In The Hospital. With Girl Problems. And They Ended Up Giving Her A Hysterectomy. So She Is Now On The Mend. My Poor Nephew Josh Doesn't Know If He's Coming Or Going. He's Been Checking On My Sister. And Going To All The Treatments With My Step Dad. And In The Middle Of All Of It. He's Still Trying To Have A Life With His Girlfriend. I Just So Feel For Him. I'm Hoping All Of This Doesn't Mess Him Up. So I Have Been Trying To Spend As Much Time As I Can With Him Too.
Well Girls. That Is My Up Date For Now. Hopefully I'll Be Back Sooner Than I Have Been. Please Take Care And Love To All Of You...................

Happy New Year Everyone.................

Well I Can't Believe It's Been A Whole Month Since I Have Been Here. It Really Doesn't Seam That Long. My Mojo Hasn't Picked Up. And I Sure Wish It Would. I Think Now That The Holidays Are Over. It May Kick In Again. I Know I'm Ready. Well Girls That's It For Now. I Just Wanted To Check In. Please Be Safe And Enjoy New Years Eve. I'll See You Soon..................